Therapists Breaking Up with Me

Over the course of my therapy years, I've had three mental health practicioners basically break up with me. Three different psychologists said I was the most mentally well adjusted person they had ever had as a client and that they didn't know how else they could help me. Of course I broke up with plenty of others because they did NOT say I was the most metnally well adjusted person they had ever met and they wanted me to try things I simply did not want to do. But the three who gave up on me. That was just weird. How can you tell someone who is in psychic pain that there's nothing you know of that can help them. Everything seems perfectly find to me says the car repairperson and then you drive it into the street and it starts clinkity clankity clanking again.

I feel well cared for now. I can't believe how helpful my medical doctor, my individual therapist, my group therapist and the Library (particularly my boss) is being in my mental wellness journey. It's amazing really. I feel like they care about me as a person and really want me to get better. It's such an awakening to know people don't think I'm just being a whiny hypochondriac. I have gone to mental health professionals off and on since I was eleven years old. That is twenty-nine years. My husband was one year old when I entered therapy.

So you'd think I'm some kind of pro, or perhaps just a sucker. You'd think I'd know what the hell it is I'm doing with this life, but then maybe that's the point. To not know and to enjoy it anyway.

But it's taken me years to realize this. To be comfortable in my occasional discomfort. To understand that when my husband and I fight it doesn't mean we're going to move and get a divorce and have to change all our friends and our whole world. It took me thirty eight years to discover Health at Every Size. To eat whole food I enjoy when I'm hungry and move my body when it's pleasurable. That life will not always go in the direction I want it to go but I might end up enjoying the journey if I keep an open mind.